Flower is a flower only because they fall 🌸
-Shogun

It is the month of the year again where May flower trees live up to their name 🌸

mono no aware -- a melancholic appreciation of fleeting beauty of nature and transciency of existence

Chekhov's gun : "If you say in the first chapter that there is a rifle hanging on the wall, in the second or third chapter it absolutely must go off. If it's not going to be fired, it shouldn't be hanging there."

I didn't plant this forest for me or my daughters nor humanity, not really!
I planted it as a real estate for anything another than humans.
For the animals I will never meet, for birds who will make nests I'll never see.
For the caterpillars and bugs that will eat the leaves of trees rustling in the wind.
A wind I won't be around to feel,
and for a thousand other reasons I will never fully understand.
- source

ಮುತುಕಲ(ಮತ್ತುಗದ) ಮರದ ಮೈ ತುಂಬಾ ಕೆಂಪೀ ಹೂವು ! No wonder it is called flame of the forest tree!

"And I would still die with the feeling that my life was but mere collection of moments, incoherent, unresolved, waiting to be lost in time"
- scraped from the net and found in my first page of attempted journal

ನಾಣಜ್ಜ ಮತ್ತೆ ಅವನ ಬಿಳಿ ಎಮ್ಮೆ!
ವಯಸ್ಸು ಎಂಬತ್ತು ಆತು ಆದ್ರೂ ಎಮ್ಮೆ ಹುಚ್ಚು ಇನ್ನು ಬಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದಿಲ್ಲೆ. ಈ ವಯಸ್ಸಲ್ಲೂ ಬ್ಯಾಣದಲ್ಲಿ ಹಗ್ಗ ಕೆಟ್ಟಿಕ್ಯಂಡ್ ಎಮ್ಮೆ ಮೆಯ್ಸ್ತಾ. ಅವನ ಉಮೇದಿಗೆ ನನ್ನ ನಮಸ್ಕಾರಾ.

"Hard times create strong men. Strong men create good times.
Good times create weak men. And, weak men create hard times."
- G. Michael Hopf

Story of cinema :
German expressionism 1910-1930
Italian neorealism 1943-1952
Parallel cinema 1950s
American new wave 1960-1970
Iranian second wave 1985-2000
South korean new wave 2000s

What is it you look forward in your life?
For me, it's the anticipation of each new season. From the refreshing rains of monsoon, to the vibrant hues of autumn, the serene embrace of winter, and the lively warmth of summer. Every season seamlessly complements the next. What a beautiful circle of seasons to live for!!

Since currupt people unite among themselves to constitute a force,
honest people must do the same
- War and Peace 1965

"ಮಣ್ಣ ತಿಂದು ಸಿಹಿ ಹಣ್ಣ ಕೊಡುವ ಮರ
ನೀಡಿ ನೀಡಿ ಮುಕ್ತ..."

Everything Everywhere All at Once
Idea of abilty to see everthig, ability to be everywhere and be all at once using internet is terrifying.
We are exposed to so much information everyday that we don't know what to do with them.

I want to learn piano once in my lifetime just to play "Erik Satie - Gymnopédie No.1" 🎹

Time flies ! hence plant fruit trees while you can.

ಇವತ್ತು ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ ಗಾಳಿ ಬೀಸ್ತ ಇದ್ದು. ಮಧ್ಯಾಹ್ನ ಬಿಸಿಲೂ ಜೋರು. ಅಪ್ಪ ಕಾಳು ಮೆಣಸು ಮೆಟ್ಟಿ ಹರಗಿ ಇಟ್ಟಿದ್ದ. ಗಾಳಿ ಅಲಿ ಅದ್ರಿದ್ದೆ ಘಾಟು!! ಮಾವಿನ ಕಸ್ತರದ್ದೂ ಕಂಪು. ಈ ಪ್ರಕೃತಿ ಎಷ್ಟು ಚಂದ ಆಲ್ದಾ?

"My whole lifespan would perhaps be fraction of an eye blink for the Universe"
I don't know why but this statement makes all my worries go away !!

Have you ever felt ecstasy and melancholy at the same time when you saw a beautiful painting or read a poem/literature or watched a movie?
well in one hand you enjoy and appreciate the art and in another hand you feel guilty, sad for not creating a such art by yourself.

How can I ever be truly happy when I know there are millions of living being suffering physically and mentally right now on this earth ?

Have you ever wished if you could just travel to any random village or town.
Sit and watch all the people go by their day to day life.
Eavesdropping their random conversations.
Feeling nostalgic of random places which you never been before !!

I wish I could feel gratitude for every single breath I take,
for the ability to appreciate colour , fragrance and texture of flowers,
for the nostalgic afternoon with cool breeze passing through the trees and bird chirps in the background,
for the emotions sprouted by beautiful art or film,
and many more things in this beautiful cosmic simulation.

I think world cinemas are cheap alternative to world trips !!

Every living things are so interesting that sometime I wonder what’s going on with their mind or soul ?
May be an ant and a human are not that different after all.
May be different living things has different notion and threshold for pain, suffering and time ?

Here I am watching two frenchmen talking about a Japanese movie director with english subtitle ! gotta be thankful for the internet 🙂

Every monument of civilisation is also monument of barbarism – Walter Benjamin

Helplessness is when you can’t express your emotion with right set of words,
Helplessness is when you can’t pen down your thoughts into paper,
Helplessness is when you can’t paint the colour you see.

My heart breaks when I see a common Ukrainian man suffers in the war. My heart breaks when I see young Russian soldiers captured by enemy.
My heart breaks when I see innocent animals suffering in the war. My heart breaks when two human beings fight each other.

More I read about the history, more darkness, violence and selfishness I see in us.

Watching everlasting white phalaenopsis bloom,
petting a stray cat,
admiring the beauty of dead yellow flowers on the dark blue concrete,
listening to post-rock musics,
when days feels like a minutes,
when night feels longer than the day,
weird dreams in the night bridging the gap between day and night,
watching the past with guilt and watching the future with dread and watching the time pass-by helplessly
sigh !!